Still with me? Part 7 ended with: “Oh, gosh darn it, we’re up to a word count of 656 and we haven’t gotten to the good part.”
So, what I thought I’d do is share with you a page or two (or another 4,000 words – just kidding!) of what that looks like:
November 17, 2013
Sunday @ 1:20 p.m.
Good afternoon, God,
Mom’s 52nd AA birthday [and the anniversary of her funeral in 1994]. So glad we are not back in 1994. Love you, Mom.
Did a couple of posts yesterday, which feels like a long time ago. Got into some emailing with Paulette of “The Persecution of Mildred Dunlop” ~ she was having trouble searching for articles on Claire ~ quite a sweetheart. Got some kind responses to comments I made on Bill’s COPD blog. Had a long Facebook conversation with Ty of Wiley’s Wisdom. And some quick exchanges with Rara of Rarasaur. Just lovely people. Spoke with Sean and Lynn.
More and more I’m getting knudged [I like it spelled that way. I know it’s spelled nudged.] to type up my old published articles on karate and skydiving and put ’em up, along with The Intruder.
The annual payment for the blog, $99.00, is due before 12/12. Right now, I’ve got enough on the Capital One card to pay it.
God, I sure do love what I am doing. I am not sure how it serves Your purpose, but it gives me great joy. It’s kind of a Maven’s dream come true – sharing ideas and info.
This month is going by fast, God.
Pause. 1:50 p.m. Is there a way to do this with integrity, God ~ meaning with independence? The idea of turning my records over to the government for food stamps, cash supplemental is abhorrent for a number of reasons.
No question, I need to push out those applications unless You’ve a better idea, God. I know for a fact I do not want to move to Las Vegas [a dear friend offered me her home]. I want to stay where I am, doing what I am doing, God. Sounds self-indulgent and costly to somebody. With a job, you have your own independence.
God, I have to believe you have the right employment for me. With a job comes more expenses – college loan payback Rx, etc. My car is paid off – thank You, God and it’s
10 eight years old – hah, in my head, I thought it was 10. Hard to believe it dates back to my first job at EMD in 2004. So much has gone on in those years!
It’s time to make the appointments with Multi-Services and the Department of Social & Health Services (DSHS) [public aid]. I checked my PSE bill ~ all paid up, including November’s bill – with a credit balance of $15. [Thanks to an assistance program between Multi-Services and PSE – my electricity company.]
New week ~ Angel Cards:
For the Week: [Blank] Abundance, Prosperity, Grace, Joy & Tenderness
[when you draw a blank card, you get get to choose the quality] Yes! I accept. Thank You, God.
For the Day: Courage & Grace
Yes. Exactly, God. I accept with gratitude. Thank You.
Soulutions: 52 & 31, 77, 15, 8
Love – today, I experience the miracles of Life. Yes!
Self-Expression – I am a creative instrument of the Divine.
Opened to #69 ~ Prosperity ~ Yes! I accept! I am the rich expression of the Divine.
Fortune ~ I am co-creating my life with You and the Holy Spirit working within and thru me, God.
Self-Awareness – I am one embodiment of God’s Love. Help me be awake and aware in Your service, God.
Privileged (!) ~ I am an individualized expression of Universal Love ~ Yes! It is a privilege to be me, here in the now. Thank You, God.
Think of that, Self! To be a living, walking, breathing aspect of God’s love. Wow. Thank You, God.
A moment’s pause with my thoughts flying to writing something along those lines and then to the COPD journal Bill wrote – wherein the daily tasks take all he has to do those things we take for granted – and how much joy we would feel to do them again. Right in front of me, I have a plethora of daily tasks that can be done with joy, if only because I can do them now. Maybe the day will come when I can not. But for now, I can. Thank You, God. Let this ability and joy sink deep into my bones.
Pause. Breath test – 160 pre-Advair.
God Calling ~ “The Quiet Lives” ~ Thank You, God. I find I enjoy this quiet life of service in Your Name. The Desiderata speaks of gracefully relinquishing the things of youth ~ one of which is certainly the razzle dazzle of climbing the ladder of achievement – of a fast-paced life – resting in the idea I am of service – and You bring the people who I need to touch for You across my path. Yes, I accept. Thank You, God.
Jesus Calling ~ Be content to be a simple sheep, guided by Me into green pastures.
Yes. I surrender and accept, Jesus. Thank You and Your Holy Spirit for your guidance and counsel.
If this smacks of religion or the politically correct no no words of God and Jesus Christ and The Holy Spirit, so be it. If you knew how long it has taken me to even say those Names aloud, much less write them in my journal…weak laughter – oh, you’ve no idea…. I started practicing writing Jesus Christ last year in the hopes I would come to terms with Him and his Name. And, here I am, just about a year later.
The purpose of saying Thank You is that it leads to gratitude, which leads to “A thankful attitude opens windows of heaven. Spiritual blessings fall freely onto you through those openings into eternity. …Thankfulness is not some sort of magical formula; it is the language of Love, which enables you to communicate with Me. A thankful mind-set does not entail a denial of reality with its plethora of problems. Instead, it rejoices in Me, your Savior in times of trials and tribulations. I am your refuge and strength, an ever-present and well-proved help in trouble.” Jesus Calling, November 22.
This past week I hit a low I hadn’t hit before and within 48 hours, you guys were telling me how much you enjoyed this series and two friends came through so that I can pay my bills for another month, maybe two. I am so blessed to have you. Thank You, God and thank you – each and every one of you for sticking with me through this series. Best ~ HuntMode